It has come to my attention......

I suppose we all have moments of clarity; those time that you see life and your place in it. Well, it wasn't pretty. This particular revelation came about as the result of a death of my mother's brother-in-law. Chris, Mother's sister-in-law and best friend died several years ago. She and her husband, Bob, live in another town but there was hardly a day that went by that they didn't talk on the phone. Mother is an only child and said that Chris was the closest thing she had to a sister.
In the days before Chris died she was planning to come here and stay with Mother while I went to do a Heart Association walk for a step-sister who had died a few months earlier. Not that Mother needed someone to care for her. They just loved spending time together. Chris called after I left to say that she wasn't feeling well and wasn't going to make it. Mother called the next day to check on her and was told that Chris didn't feel like coming to the phone. Mother told Bob that he needed to get her to a doctor. With her history of diabetes she could dehydrate rapidly. Bob and Doug,the 50+ year old son who also lived in the house, did nothing until it was too late. The details of her death and her condition horrified the hospital staff and the funeral director.
.....and now Bob is dead....I had to wonder if he had laid for days dying.....but I digress.
There are people who make a difference and people who take up space. I see myself as one of the later; just taking up space. In this world I don't think that is worthwhile...
to be continued